I don’t know what to call this post, I don’t know what I’m going to write about or why I’m even writing it but it’s been over a month since I’ve written a blogpost and nearly a month since I’ve engaged with social media and I suppose I feel I should explain even though no one probably cares.
I’ve been running on empty for the past few months – taking on too much both with school and the blog and then in my personal life too. I seem to be constantly chasing my tail and never fully finishing things that I want to. My to do list is never ending and to be honest I’ve been struggling.
For me the blog has always been a way to relax, reflect and keep track of things that work for me but in recent months it has become a source of stress with constant demands (ones I have set myself and some that come from other areas) and unfortunately it has reached a point where I don’t know if it’s something I want to continue anymore.
As the blog has grown over the past 5 years so to have my expectations for myself and my future career as well as the expectations of other people. The blog has over twenty thousand followers, as well as a readership of over 50,000 every month. I suppose in a way I felt that the blog would look fantastic on my CV for future job opportunities and to be fair it definitely has opened up some opportunities that I never thought I would have. But it has reached a point where I don’t know if the work I put in is worth it.
I suppose over the last few months, I began to see the blog as a stepping stone and after many honest conversations with friends and family I’ve come to realise that this is not the case and the blog needs to be seen as it’s own thing rather than a stepping stone.
(I realise that what I’m writing probably doesn’t make much sense – this post is my way of trying to get my thoughts written down and try to explain things so apologies if its a bit confusing!)
Irish Primary Teacher never ceases to amaze me – I vividly remember going into the sitting room to chat with my boyfriend about this idea I had for a blog – a teaching blog and he thought it was mad (as did I) but it has become a huge part of my life and it is also a (very) small business that I have grown from scratch by myself. It is something that I’m very proud of and something that I hope to grow even further in the future. Every time I get a notification of a like, share or a message of thanks I’m genuinely so delighted. When I get a sale receipt through the blog or Mash.ie I get excited too. When I look at my followers growing or views on my stories or youtube channel increasing it is a great feeling too!
Over the past few weeks however, it became a source of stress and dread. I couldn’t motivate myself to write blogposts, create resources and answer question so I decided to stop altogether. I think I was just completely overwhelmed and burned out from it all which is why I decided to take a break – probably the longest break I’ve taken since starting the blog (almost 5 years ago). I’m feeling a bit better now so I do hope to be back to posting and sharing ideas after the Easter holidays.
I don’t know what the future holds for Irish Primary Teacher but for now I’m back and ready for the last term! (Only 9 weeks until the summer holidays!)